I am a 40 year old woman who has been divorced twice and has basically wasted her life on loving the wrong things, (i.e. men, material goods, others more than myself). I am now in such a low place that I am just not sure how to pull myself out. I have had a very abusive life, even as a child, and I’m wondering why I was ever born? I have helped others to achieve things but I have always had to suffer in the process. I have seen my works taken from me and others profit from them time and time again and I am always left alone and broken. I just don’t understand why the Lord has me here at this low place again. I have struggled all of my life but it seems to be for the benefit of others who have left me behind and have forgotten me. Now I’m so depressed that death seems to be the only solution for this deep pain that won’t leave me alone. I have nothing now. No money, no friends, no one who really thinks of me or my best interests. I am alone. My children have turned on me after 17 years of being a single parent to be with the one who beat and abused me. This hurts more than words can express especially since I have done everything for them to keep them safe. I just want to know why God has allowed me to suffer so much? Why He has allowed me to help others succeed in life and Im still a failure? It hurts to be rejected all of the time, when all that I have given was love. Isn’t that what we are suppose to do? Give love? So what do I do when I have given all that I have and then some, to only be left with nothing. It’s too much to bear.
~Fay
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